With life, in general, there is going to be up-front, mind-blowing beauty... AND there is going to be nerve-wracking, self-doubt situations that turn into blessings. Either way, if you are looking for them, they will be found and the blessings will FAR out weigh the tragedies. May, 2011 I opened a holistic health centre and loved the social aspect with so many lovely people. But, it was a LOT if work, there was no profit in it and many other areas of my life suffered. I didn't even realize how much of my life was taking a back seat until I decided that the work level and lack of profit was at too much of an unbalance to continue. It's quite the shock to the system to have something that ran a majority of your life to just come to a screeching hault. There were lots of unanswered questions (because those come with time and no urgency) and maybe a couple panic attacks. Beauty is everywhere. When one door closes, another opens. If you only ask.. It is given.